Hi! My name is Micki Smith. I am 34 years old. I am 5' 5'' tall. I
weigh 113 lbs. Last March, I weighed around 100 lbs. I wanted to
gain weight. I had not planned on losing that much weight. I
weighed around 135 lbs. before then. I became ill, I was
hospitalized at a psychiatric hospital and was diagnosed with
borderline bi-polar disorder. I had always had highs and lows--this
condition should have been diagnosed sooner. Anyway, I have been
saying for the past year that I needed to gain to 116 lbs. This is the
lowest weight in my range for height and all to be considered
healthy. I never dreamed that once I gained 110 lbs. that it would
bother me. It is really bothering me. I have cut back on my calories
and have even started to take diet pills--which I know is not good. I
have had to start using laxatives once a week, because of
constipation. I see a therapist weekly. I'm not sure if I have an
eating disorder or not. I want to do what is right; but I don't want to
gain the weight. I know I should. I know I'm thin--but sometimes I
think I'm fat.
Thanks,
Micki
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