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I don't know why I do it but I do...each day I start out with the good
intentions of only eating healthy, light foods. This lasts for a short
while, until I get home from work. All I can think about is that food
in the fridge. I obsess about it. Until I give in and eat it. Knowing
that it will make me fat, I eat it anyway. A guilt so strong comes over
me at the last bite and I follow my usual routine. Run to the kitchen
sink and get rid of it! I know it is dangerous, but in my state of
mind at the time, I just don't care. It is as if I am a different
person when I do this. I am possessed by a force stronger than me
and I can't control myself. I want to desperately! I don't want to
die from this! I don't want to lose me.
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