Michele's story Bulimia Nervosa San Francisco, California

It wasn't until I was 15 that I realized that I was fat. I wanted to be as beautiful as everyone else, but I wasn't. Stuffing my face with food became a way for me to pacify my self hate. At 16 I began purging after the man I lost my virginity to broke up with me. At first it was great! I lost 15 pounds in two weeks. At 96 pounds I was weak but I felt in control. I then knew how to stop the burning confusion in my mind - simply cleanse myself by ritually purging into the porcelain bowl. "Wow, what a relief!" I learned to throw up in silence. My mother and father never heard a sound.