Aida's Story Bulimia Nervosa





Hello, my name is Aida and here is my story. I have had an eating disorder (bulimia), since I was 15 years old I am now 29 years old. It is a very hard and long struggle. I live daily with this pain, but I am seeking help. It's so hard to deal with but I think admitting I have a problem is a big step for me. People that know me would probably flip if they knew my deepest enemy, my eating disorder. Yet for a very long time I thought it was my only friend, something no one could take from me. I wish someone would take it away. I started purging very young, people always made fun of me and my weight, so I figured I could eat all I wanted and throw it up later and lose weight. I did also starve myself and lost lot's of weight. I am probably now at my thinnest and unhealthiest. I have many problems, no one can see but they are there. I have been writing poems to help me cope with this monster I used to call friend. I would like to share one with all of you maybe someone can relate.

Me - a Poem

Tall, dark and beautiful...me?
Laughing, loving, free...me?
Intelligent, successful...me?
Charming, sophisticated, smiling...me?

Why can't they see?

Lieing, decieving, lost...me
Crying, voices, bound...me
Dying, starving, mixed up...me

Falling, falling, falling...me

This is what I see.

Thank you for letting me share my story with you all.