Aida's Story Bulimia Nervosa

Hello, my name is Aida and here is my story. I have had an eating disorder (bulimia), since I was 15 years old I am now 29 years old. It is a very hard and long struggle. I live daily with this pain, but I am seeking help. It's so hard to deal with but I think admitting I have a problem is a big step for me. People that know me would probably flip if they knew my deepest enemy, my eating disorder. Yet for a very long time I thought it was my only friend, something no one could take from me. I wish someone would take it away. I started purging very young, people always made fun of me and my weight, so I figured I could eat all I wanted and throw it up later and lose weight. I did also starve myself and lost lot's of weight. I am probably now at my thinnest and unhealthiest. I have many problems, no one can see but they are there. I have been writing poems to help me cope with this monster I used to call friend. I would like to share one with all of you maybe someone can relate.

Me - a Poem

Tall, dark and
Laughing, loving,
Charming, sophisticated,

Why can't they see?

Lieing, decieving,
Crying, voices,
Dying, starving, mixed

Falling, falling,

This is what I see.

Thank you for letting me share my story with you all.