I had always been really insecure even as a child. There was always a need for me to please everyone. My parents divorced when I was about five years old. I lived with my mother, but always wanted to be with my father. I would cry myself to sleep every night thinking about him. My father and I were very close. This all changed when I started getting older into my teenage years. We could not get along, I believe he had a hard time dealing with me growing up. At fifteen years old I ended up getting into a serious relationship with a guy. He was very abusive, both mentally and physically. I got pregnant and had my son at sixteen years old. I stayed with my son's father for six tormenting years.
I had my first binge and purging episode when I was nineteen, about two weeks after I had my gallbladder removed for gallstones. I was told in the hospital that I would have to watch everything I ate. I am now twenty-five years old and I am still struggling with bulimia. There are times when I won't purge for 4-6 months, and then it just starts back up. It never goes away, I know this now. I am going to go back to counseling and, unfortunately, I decided to try Prozac to see if it helps with the binges. I don't like medications like these but I have to do something before it kills me. Thank you for reading my story.