Michele's Story Anorexia & Bulimia

My name is Michele and I have been battling with Anorexia and Bulimia and the whole visious cycle that comes along with it for about two years. When I was at my eating stage I would take hundereds of laxatives to rid my body of the food. Now I am eating two rice cakes and a low fat yogart and excercising enough for a five course meal to be burned off. I am scared of where this will lead. I don't really care about trying to be healthy because doctors and hospitals and therapy have not helped me yet, so I figure I am just a lost cause. I guess I just hope this demon called an eating disorder will just take me away. I do not want to hurt my family anymore. I can't talk to my family, they have never understood. I just feel lost. Help!